But there is a slight chance I could be pregnant. It could be just stress on top of a slightly odd cycle this month. And I’m still in my normal range. If I hadn’t spent the better part of the past 4 years tracking my cycles in hopes of getting pregnant, I probably wouldn’t even notice. But this cycle has been really, really not normal for me. Spotting started about a week after ovulation and has kept up since. I’m at the very top of my normal LP range. I’ve been super tired and generally feeling just a bit off.
I let on about this to C, without getting into all the specifics. She was not upset, really, but a bit concerned. Which is reasonable. And I’m trying not to make too big a deal of it in my head. The problem is, I want it to be true. I want this child, if it is. It’s not exactly how I would have chosen to have it come about. And there would be much fall out to deal with from lots of angles.
If I’m not really bleeding by the time E comes over on Thursday, I think I may have to tell him. Which I’m not looking forward to, because while I feel morally obligated to let him know I may be pregnant, I don’t want him being all stressed over something that may turn out to be nothing.
Ugh.
